everything's gonna be quite alright

sometimes

2006-09-27T01:26:29Z

the people who you want to care the most don't
the people you need by your side are gone
the people you love the most don't see it
the people who you put first forget about you

hello again

2006-09-11T02:01:29Z

I haven't posted a journal in sooooo long! oh man haha senior year started after a short but awesome summer. so far so good. everything is good and i think it's going to be an great year. i won't want to leave at the end tho...i know that.

a lot has changed...my hair...my clothes...i have a boyfriend now that i love even though he doesn't think i do. friends are the same and the best as always.

field hockey is good. first game tomorrow and i can't wait. we have a realyl good team this year and i think we might actually have a chance at the championship this year so i cant wait.

i will update soon! until then...LOVE!

terrible

2006-07-11T06:12:43Z

Yesterday could have been one of the most horrible days of my life. Not only did I get into one of the biggest fights with my family possible...but one of my best friends is angry with me, and the person I love doesn't trust me. I'm finally working passed my fear of letting someone in, and my fear of commitment, but the person that I want to open up to, isn't accepting me. I am far from perfect...I'm stubborn and ignorant and I pick fights, but I also know that I'd bend over backwards to make my friends happy. I'd gladly give up my life in order to save theirs. So why can't he see that? I give my love the only way I know how and I get my flaws thrown in my face. Apparently love isn't enough anymore.

i just dont know...

2006-06-11T15:28:33Z

I don't know if it's the shitty weather or the fact that school still isn't out yet but I have been really low lately. I'm so bummed out all the time. I need something to lift my spirits because lately, nothing seems worth getting up for anymore. I hope it goes away soon because I hate feeling like this. Today is graduation for the seniors and as much as I am sad to see them go I am also really excited for all of them. Only one more year and I will be in their seats...oh god I can't believe it.

I've come to realize how much more actions speak louder than words. Even though I do overuse the word love...the one time I really mean it when I say it to someone, it hasn't the slightest affect so that doesn't make me to eager for the future. Since when did we become so lax in telling people how we feel about them. I couldn't tell the people around me I love them anymore than I already have and yet everyone seems to fear it. Maybe it's just me that lives for love. Why isn't love enough anymore?

I'm in serious need of physical attention these days...even if it's just holding hands with someone. I miss that. I miss the closeness.

Head Automatica and Rent and Starbucks are my life these days!

good weekend

2006-05-29T23:18:40Z

friday saw some awesome people...hung with the girls but was sad that steven didnt come down =[

saturday i slept late, then went to rissas game and saw eben, then headed off to maine where we took erin on her first camping trip. had loads of fun playing with katie and molly and got all the info on michael and jimmy's love lives and heard some good stories from maureens friends.

sunday we pooled it all day and got some color, poor erin burned to a crisp =[ saw guitar boy and decided i was gonna marry him then listened to him sing a song he wrote a karaoke night

woke up early today and packed up. came home and went to the beach with mark and leo. and now im just relaxing and trying to get rid of the worst headache ever =[

much love...malden jilly

yay!

2006-05-26T02:55:40Z

Weather is stellar these days! I love it! Hanging with Steve tomorrow, then weekend away with Rissa and Erin! Date with Ally next weekend and I can't friggin wait!!! Good to see Maria today...she's a sweetheart! I hope I don't have a Drew-less summer like last year, even though as of now it looks like it'll be that way =/ Can't wait to see Linz again! Definitely spending a week or two in New Hartford again this summer! Goodbye to all the seniors...miss you already!

I fucking love family force 5 and cartel!! and STARBUCKS!

the end.

this week so far

2006-05-22T21:08:06Z

Well my weekend totally sucked. Friday was Mr. MHS and Fritz won but I wish Eben had cause he wanted it so bad but oh well. Then had some laughs at Cammy's. Saturday I got my nails done with my mommy and did some last minute shopping before her trip. Then I had to work from 4-10 which sucked but Steve and Kem mad me laugh all night. But while I was there I found out my grandmother is sick so I was upset the rest of the night =[ Sunday I had to get up early and help my parents finish packing for Ireland: it's their 25th wedding aniversary so they took a nice trip! Dropped them off at like 4 and was home alone the rest of the night and it sucked! I miss them a lot but it's good to have some freedom. It's MCAS week so I get to sleep late tomorrow and wednesday and I am super happy about that. I hope I have a good weekend...I could use it. Hopefully Steven will be paying Malden a visit on friday. I miss him! This summer I am going to see Jess a lot cause I'm dying without her. Ally and I are going to see eachother all the time too...and of course Sam baby! Ewww I have work tonight...and tomorrow night...and thursday night...not fun! I have decided Malden has produced some of the greatest people ever to live! I love my friends. I miss Drew a ton these days...we are kind of speaking again but it's still weird...I miss running up and hugging him in the halls =[ but I guess I will just have to wait until one day when we can be best friends again.

peace and love...Malden Jilly

seriously...

2006-05-12T01:18:08Z

this weather is killing me. i hate being moody and bitchy all the time and i swear its the weather that is causing it!

i feel so out of a the loop these days...just all crazy and random...like nothign really fits together anymore!

im in need of a boy these days...i miss holding hands, and stolen kisses, and cuddling, and being able to be shown off, and going on dates, and bragging about them and being the reason for someones happiness. i hope things get better soon!

and im addicted to Starbuck's passion iced tea lemonade!! its so good...i drink them all the time.

cant wait for school to end but im sad the seniors are leaving so soon, they only have like 9 days left or something crazy like that. ive gotten so clsoe to all of them just within this past year and now its time for all of them to leave. seems like the last three years was a waste when we all could have gotten to know eachother

rent soon! and my parents go to ireland soon so i get a break from them. and my sister is coming home from school this weekend.

i hope it a good weekend, i need some cheering up lately.

the end!

love malden jill

I cant wait for summer...

2006-04-27T01:21:53Z

The nice days are really spoiling me! I am soooo excited for summer. Nothing makes me happier than when I walk outside and the sun is shining and the breeze is warm. I have a feeling its going to be a really good summer. I hope so anyways. I want to stay up late and watch fireworks. I want to spend the whole day in Boston. I want to go to the beach all the time and do cartwheels and right in the sand. I want to lay in the grass with friends and just relax. I want to have summer love and be crazy and wild. I have already decided I am going to spend alot of time with alot of people. I am going to enjoy every bit of this summer and not take it for granted! Let have an amazing summer together okay?
much love...Malden Jilly

the start of vacation...

2006-04-16T17:09:17Z

Finally April Break is here! YAY! Thursday was my best friend Erin's birthday and a good day. She won her game and then the girls went over her house and had a great time! My marissa is the best dancer ever! Then friday I went to Panera with Allie and Ashley...good times with those two then into Boston with Bill, my sister and my parents! I saw Allan, Bryan, Louie, Biggie, and Billy at the station on my way there and it seriously made my whole weekend. I love those guys so much and it was sooo good to see Bryan after all this time. Since my dad got wasted in Boston he spent some money on me at American Eagle and Urban Outfitters! Saturday I got a manicure and pedicure that was much needed, then had work with some cool cats. When I got home I got an awesome visit from Mark, Christine, and Derek! I love those kids...they always make me smile...and I am going to marry Mark some day! Today is Easter so I am spending the whole day with the family but hopefully I will be able to sneak away for a bit so I can see Allan cause its his birthday too! I have a feeling this is going to be a good spring break. My goals are to see Sam and Ally cause I miss them so much, hang with the malden boys alot, see steven alot, go to Rockport for the day, and investigate some schools. Its alot but I think I can do it. Anywho everyone have a great easter and happy birthday to Allan, Jon Wain, and Mariah...love you all!

love...Malden Jilly

school

2006-04-04T21:58:27Z

I scheduled my classes for next year and I can already tell its going to be a kick ass year! Oh god I am going to be a senior...man high school went by way too fast. I am so sad the seniors are leaving and so mad the new freshman are coming in, but oh well. Tons of stuff going on lately...today was freshman orientation, we have a college fair next week, then april break! Sam Goody is sadder than ever...I am going to miss everyone there so much! Got to see all the malden fam this weekend and it was awesome. Biggie, Louie, Billy, Allan, and Shaun are the best! I miss steven like crazy...havent seen him in a while. thats about it for now...ill update soon <3

love malden jilly

countdowns:
Gavin's birthday-april 7th
Erin's birthday-april 13th
Spring Fling-April ??
RENT!-June 9th
Jess's birthday-June 14th

March

2006-03-27T21:34:23Z

Everything is all over with. Junior Varieties, although it was the hardest time of my life, was a total success. We sold out friday night and almost sold out saturday night! The show went so well. Everyone did so well and I am so proud of them all. Althought I'm happy to have some free time back, I am really going to miss seeing everyone everyday! I definitely made some life long friendships! My new favorite people are all my senior girls and guys, and my favorite Mark Damon, Sandra Wong my counterpart, and Ashley O! We had so many good times! On the other hand I did get some bad news recently too. Sam Goody is officially being closed so within the next couple of months I will be jobless. I am going to miss everyone so much! What will I do without them all. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Also my aunt patty has some kind of rare brain disease and is in the hospital so that really bummed me out! Summer is just around the corner and I can't wait. Only lik 3 months left of school YAY! This week is MCAS so i have late entry everyday! Haha all you sophomores! Well thats about it! I will update soon

much love...malden jilly <3

jill_likewoah @ 2006-03-19T22:04:00

2006-03-20T03:08:13Z

nothing worse than last looks. nothing breaks a heart like saying goodbye

what a good weekend!

2006-03-19T17:03:34Z

It's official I am marrying either Tyson Ritter or Pete Wentz! They were amazing at the concert! Nothing better than going to a concert with my very best girls...Rissa, Erin, Cammy, Chrissy, Joanna, and Amanda...and seeing the hottest guys in the world. Fall Out Boy sounded amazing and I am soo happy I got to go see them. The All-American Rejects were awesome too. I just wished they could have played longer. Next concert I am without a doubt meeting Pete! Saturday was kinda mellow. Just hung around the house then spent the night at Sean's for his birthday! Had some really really good laughs. I have the best family ever! There is never a dull moment with them. Today is going to suck cause I have my SAT class but whatever!

Only one week left until Junior Varieties. The next few days will be insane!!! I might as well just sleep at the school cause I'm going to be there nonstop. I really hope it all goes well. I am nervous we might forget something but I am sure everything will fall into place! Also I hope I get to see everyone there! The acts this year are really good I promise!

That is about it for now. I'll update soon! Also welcome home to Shaun and Bryan, hope cali was fun and Happy 17th Birthday to Drew!

much love...malden jill

ps-i miss steve <3

here is comes!

2006-03-16T02:29:27Z

only 48 hours til me and marissa and the rest of my stellar friends are mere feet away from pete, andrew, joe and pat! i cant wait! its gonna be the best night ever! and i get to see tyson ritter too! oh god i think i might just die! and i need to see steve a.s.a.p. cuz i miss his cute face <3 nick is moving to colorado =[ and thats even more far away than he is now! i hope he's happy out there and safe!

<3 jilly

busy busy busy

2006-03-13T15:35:41Z

Only 4 more days until Marissa's 17th Birthday! I don't think I can stress my excitement anymore! I might just be more excited than her if that's even possible! Had a really good weekend. Friday went to dinner witht he girls then hung at Cammy's and it was the funniest thing ever! I love cameron...she always makes me smile. Saturday there were rehearsals really early but it let me get a good start on the day. Went on a huge shopping spree and met some hot kids at Abercrombie and Hollister which I didn't mind at all. Hung out with some of the field hockey girls later on then went home and hung with my sister. Shaun and Bryan are in LA and I am so jealous. Steven is in Arizona but coming home today so yay!

This week will be the easiest ever. Late entry today, no school wednesday and getting dismissed on friday! Its going to breeze by. Junior Varieties is only two weeks away. It's really coming together but I am a bit stressed and nervous we might forget something. All the acts are working so hard. I am really proud of everyone. And I better see everyone there...its March 24th and 25th at Malden High School! Everyone go, its gonna be a really good show.

My sister and I started planning our trip for when we graduate! We haven't decided yet if we want to go to Europe or if we want to go on a cruise. We will see thought, either way we will have a good time. Me, Erin and Marissa have a plan to take a big road trip when we graduate and I know everyone says that but I am already starting to map out where we are going to go. Everyone has to take at least one road trip in their lives so this is our chance.

I've decided that I am going move to England for a while after I graduate. I really miss everyone I met while I was over there so we will see.

much love...make good decisions...Malden Jilly

PS-I love Bobby skane cuz he is standing right next to me while I type this and he deserves a shout out cuz he has been the best brother anyone could ever ask for. Friends forever bro!

weekend

2006-03-05T20:26:16Z

great weekend! got to see my sister friday night. then hung with the girls...had rehearsals yesterday which sucked but then i got to see steven which was fun lol. only 12 days til fob and aar! cant wait...and i just found out i might be going to either south carolina or florida for spring break! and i might just be nice and bring someone with me...but who? we will see...

<3 malden jilly

i will miss your lips...and everything attached to them

yayness! =]

2006-03-03T01:39:44Z

Only 15 more days til the concert and Rissa's birthday! Can't wait...drew's birthday is right around the corner too! Everything is happening so fast these days. Junior Varieties is in like 3 weeks...prom...the seniors only have like 3 more month...its so sad! Awww what will we do without them next year...maybe win spirit week since we "tied" this year...even though the juniors really did win haha. I need some warm weather...the cold sucks...I really can't handle it anymore...spring need to get here pronto!

I miss the malden fam...all the GB kids...like Shaun and Allan and Biggie and all those cool kids. Im thinking i need to pay them a visit soon. Sam and Ally too! ohh and the love of my life alyssa cuz she is just so cute! We are gonna party hardcore and drink chai tea cuz we are cool like that.

Update on JV's:Things are going awesome...i practically live at the school but its worth is. The acts are really coming together...god I hope its good. The finale is gonna kick ass! Cant wait to see how Ashley and Mark and Mariah and Eben and Kenny and and Leo all the other amazing people do. They are so my heroes! So I better see everyone at the show!

oh man i need a break from ghetto malden...too many crack babies and hookers hanging around!

mucho love...Malden Jilly

vacation

2006-02-27T01:11:27Z

Oh god its the last night of vacation. Back to reality tomorrow...I don't know if I can handle it! Over all though vacation was good. Lots of random moments, good times with friends, and insane pictures. There are some people I wish I got to see but unfortunately didn't. Junior varieties is coming along well but its been very stressful. Only 19 more days til Marissa's birthday and fall out boy and all american rejects. Oh man I can't wait. I got her present and already have plans for the day for her! She's going to have the best birthday. Steven is on his way home from his cruise at this very moment and he's going to come back all tan and I hate him for that hehe jk. Everyone who reads this...go see Elizabethtown and Rent...they are my new obsessions...both awesome movies! My addiction to vanilla chai is getting worse by the day! I miss Lizzie and RK and all my new hartford lovers...I have to go see them soon! Summer where are you? Get here soon!

<3 Jilly

my weekend!

2006-02-21T00:14:36Z

Thank god it is finally Feb. vacation. I seriously needed some time to recovery. Was at the Vona house all weekend which was fun. Nothing like hanging with your best friend all weekend. We had some good laughs, went into Boston, got to see Jess, watched awesome movies, saw cute boys. It was good. And I got to see Steven for about 5 mins on Saturday so yay! He's off on his cruise and I can't wait for him to get home <3
Have no work this week buts lots of JV rehearsals so I'll be spending lots of time at the school. Me and Erin got our Y memberships finally today and I am so excited. Time to get in shape for summer. Also got the sale of the year on saturday night. Got the cutest jean skirt at American Eagle for $10 and I'm in love with it.

Let make plans to hang this week k? I wanna see everyone who I always want to hang with but never really get to. I wish I got to see Jess and Jon more on Saturday =[ I only got like an hour with them which sucks but I'm sure I will see them soon.

Also last night I sliced my ring finger open on my right hand and it hasn't stopped bleeding since =[

<3 malden jill

a story

2006-02-13T02:44:12Z

once upon a time there was a girl...

and she had a best friend...

and they did everything together all the time...

even tho they were different in many ways...
they were also alike in many ways...
and forever they stayed best friends...
inseparable til the end of time.
the end.

snowy days

2006-02-12T16:27:05Z

There is some serious snow outside and I'm not planning on leaving the house all day because of it. This weekend has been kinda lame. Friday was funny I have to admit but it ended to quick. But I did get to see Allan, Biggie <3, Louie, and Alex for a split second so that made me smile. Yesterday was a complete waste of a day. I worked and thats about it. Didn't get to see Andrea and Amanda on their birthdays and that made me sad but I still hope they had good days! Woke up to a blizzard and that blows! I am so sick of winter. I want it to be summer and I don't think I can say that enough. But I did get the Veronicas cd early cuz of the awesome people at Sam Goody and its so good. Highlighted my hair cuz I got bored too! lol I love random things like that. I'm really wanting vanilla chai but I can't get out of my house. Valentine's Day is Tuesday and that also sucks cause its just a pointless holiday. Its really great that you need a holiday to show how much you love someone, you should be able to do that on your own! But whatever.

Who wants to run away to Figi with me? Im serious im moving there!

<3 malden jilly

since when

2006-02-07T23:18:52Z

did it become cool to talk other people's aphorisms and ideas? not that anyone has been taking mine just that they have been taken other people's. come on guys come up with your own stuff.

Yesterday was me and Amanda's 5 month anniversary and we both totally forgot until today in trig class. haha shes so funny. i love that girl! Its official that Allie is going to be my working out buddy to get in shape for summer cause she works out hardcore. haha apparently she just get in the zone. And shes going to teach me how to be an amazing swimmer like her haha. Only one month and ten days until marissa's birthday...im so excited for her. cant wait to give her, her present...shes gonna love it haha!

i wanna mosh...

2006-02-06T02:36:26Z

This weekend was insane. Hardcore partyinh with the girls friday night haha we have so much fun together. I miss them all. Saturday was boring but mad drama at work. I hate people who try to steal. Nothing lower than stealing from someone. Then I hung with Andrew for a little while which was so random but it was good to chat with him. Today I slept late today and didnt feel too good. Then I went to the Kaplan class and it was so boring that I had more fun couting the tiles in the ceiling.

I am counting down the days til Marissa birthday and seeing Fall Out Boy. Omg i cant wait. Its gonna be a blast. Still dont know what I want to get her but its gonna be something huge.

Im in the mood to go to a crazy concert and mosh and have an awesome time...but im getting more and more broke so me and rissa will be holding a mosh in my backyard. blast music...put up the floodlight...and dance all night...itll be awesome cuz everything we do is awesome.

I cant wait til summer...staying up late and being able to wear shorts...aww its gonna be great.

much love -Jilly

ps-i <3 him

la la la

2006-02-01T23:41:15Z

steve from georgetown is just about the coolest kid ever cuz he drinks lemon lime soda pop! haha

today was insane! i just want it to be the weekend! and i am craving burger king lol